THE MANY NARRATIVES OF SPECULATIVE FREEMASONRY

Reading between the lines is what we do. It is what draws us to the light more so when we find ourselves embraced by fertile mind palaces that brought speculative freemasonry to the point it is today.  If you are attentive to ideas, each stone found and put in place takes us one piece closer to completing a puzzle.  Doing it without judging yourself or others- try focusing on only what is most important . Yes others need validation by sharing their versions  and yes there are many distractions. Maybe it is yearning; if only I had been born to genius and wealth- I would be complete within myself.  Tell yourself that until the truth reveals itself. Your intelligence is waiting to be discovered.  Like speaking truth to power, it is often unwanted, insufferable unless tempered by a gentle nature. That calmness is buried until you replace one version of you for another more complete.  What have you to loose by trying? Overcoming such challenges is the nature of a curious character. You and I call it doubt. Others call it contemplation.  You call it anxiety;others call it excitement, waiting for that moment of understanding.  Know too that what worries you internally today is temporary.  The moment we live in soon passes.  Wanting to enrich yourself, is then about comparing great works with your own emerging thinking. There is value in understanding the ideas of the brightest minds that came before. Savouring what you have absorbed, applying knowledge is such an obscure path that through masonry it is a lifelong process.  Like you,  Buddha, Socrates, Hildegard of Begin and Thomas Aquinas were also people.  Hindsight elevated their ideas and our thinking.  So who is to say in your own way, you have ability, and are following a similar path? Let your honest hindsight be the judge.