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https://www.leanneboyd.com I had spent my most of life wanting to be ‘more than I felt that I was. In my eyes, I was always second best. Being the youngest of six children, I was a shy little country girl who wanted to be someone who people would notice and say “WOW, Look at her!” instead of being always overlooked. I didn’t want to keep feeling ‘Blah’, so I pretended to be a ‘Superstar!’ However, I was always willing to do whatever it takes to be the best I could be. I felt competitive but no matter how much I strived to be better, no matter how many sacrifices I made, I felt I was never ‘good enough’ to come out on top. I appeared so confident on the outside looking like everything was great. Always smiling and pushing myself out of my comfort zone but inside I was an anxious, emotionally exhausted and stressed mess. I did accomplish some great things – won many personality quests, had an awesome job as a flight attendant and worked in the beauty industry on the side, and always at parties! You couldn’t tell that on the inside, I felt like a failure. I was just getting by, all the while comparing myself to everyone else who seemed to be in total control and confident in what they were doing and where they were going.